Kei Seichi's Blog

Setiap manusia takkan lari dari sikap cemburu or cakap orang putihnye "Jealous" tapi aku nak eja sebagai jeles...Kenapa aku nak jeles dengan mereka2 ni? Sebab aku tahu aku takkan dapat jadi seperti mereka dan jugak sebab aku ade IC (inferiority complex) so aku constantly akan compare hidup aku dengan orang lain, samada kenal secara personal atau tak...

Yup, aku selalu compare hidup aku dengan orang lain and most of the time, I will find that they are better than me, maybe because of the IC..Anyway, ni antara orang2 yang aku rasa jeles dengan mereka...adakah korang tergolong dalam golongan ni?



Blogger yang popular. Dia tulis la pape pon dalam entry die, confirm berpusu2 orang masuk blog die nak bace  entry. Hatta entry bertajuk "Berak" dan hanya mengandungi ayat "Best giler aku berak tadi, puas hati..hahaha.." pon akan ramai orang datang baca serta komen. Tak termasuk blogger wanita popular yang tulis tajuk entry je pastu letak je gambar die close up kat kamera macam nak keluar dari kamera tu dengan muka budget baby doll die..ramai la orang datang blog die pastu komen "ur so cute!", "cute sangat!" and wutever...

Kalau aku buat entry pasal berak, terus kosong follower aku, sume unfollow...kalau aku buat letak gambar seperti diatas confirm kena kutuk budget comel la, budget k-pop la bagai...


Mereka yang ade self-esteem yang tinggi. Contoh biasa kalau pompuan, body saiz XXL tapi pakai baju saiz S siap posing2 lagi depan kemera then upload banyak2 gambar kat blog. Kalau laki pulak, die letak pic die kat blog banyak2 macam model padahal tak la model sangat. Pastu kalau masuk blog terpampang besar bagai nak rak muka tuan blog kat header..header lagi besar dari entry die..jenuh nak skrol ke bawah cari entry...

Kalau aku pakai baju saiz S confirm komen2 kutukan je yang tinggal. Aku tak hensem sebab tu aku tak letak gambar aku kat blog. Hatta kat Facebook pon gambar terbaru aku ialah tahun lepas. Aku tak letak gambar aku kat header sebab aku tak suka gambar aku. Aku tak suka diri aku sendiri, masakan boleh suka gambar aku..



Mereka yang letak gambar Bf/Gf kat blog/Fb. Mereka2 ni kira sweet la dan sayang pakwe/makwe masing2.. letak gambar kat blog pastu macam mendewa2 kan mereka.. Pastu tulis la "taken by him", "pengarang jantung hati saye", "die saye punye" dan sebagainye lagi...

Aku single, takde makwe, takde sape nak aku. Misal kata aku ade makwe pon aku tak kan letak gambar die kat blog or buat entry pasal die. Kalau wife lain cerita la...


Anyway, ni je la kot mereka2 yang aku jeleskan..tulis panjang2 pon sape la nak bace kan...aku sedar siapa diriku ini...

"Siapalah aku ini untuk memintal buih yang memutih, menjadi permaidani seperti mana yang tertulis dalam novel cinta...."

P/s: Biasa kalau aku ade IC moments( that's what I call it when I feel like this), so aku akan tulis. Nasib la korang kalau bace...haha

Life...what is life? Life is what we are doing now, living a life..But seriously, what is life? I don't know what the definition of life is but I can tell you this, life doesn't seems fair sometimes, isn't it?

I was doing my morning blogwalking today and like every other day, I would stumble across a few blog who's owner is pretty or good looking...then I'll scroll down and I will usually saw pictures of the owner's GF/BF happily together or an entry bout how s/he loves her/his BF/GF... well..isn't that nice? For you, maybe...*sigh*

Then I would come across status updates on FB or tweets on twitter bout one of my friends saying how great his/her life is, how awesome for him/her to go somewhere, a holiday for example, how madly in love they are with their partner, and some will include pictures, how tiring their job is, how they come across something interesting on their way to/ from work, how they got their pay for the month and asking everybody to go shopping, saying how pretty they are and everybody hates her because she is pretty and some more other things...

Look, I'm not saying I hate you guys for having a more awesome life than I am...I'm not saying I'm jealous of you guys or anything,well...maybe a little...I'm grateful because I am still breathing right now...It's just..i don't know..maybe I'm having my IC (inferiority complex) moments...or just having my period..hahaha....Ehem, as I was saying, I envy you guys...

I know I won't have a girlfriend anytime soon because let's face it, who would want me right? Job? Who would want to hire me? I don't wanna hire myself...Income? What can I do to make some money? Sell my organs maybe? Wonder who wanna buy my organs...Anybody want?

My friends once said to stop comparing my life with others...but how can I? I mean, I'm online most of the time I'm awake and I read tweets and FB status like...often...so how can I NOT COMPARE MY LIFE WITH OTHERS'? Even if I live in a cave I would compare my life to bats...and they would have better life...

So let's face it...life is not fair sometimes but some other times..well..maybe...

Mood: Feeling forever alone...

                                             

What is Inferiority Complex? Well...u can read it here in my other blog, I'm too lazy to repost --> Inferiority Complex

So..what does IC has to do with me? Well. its not really a disease...its more like a feeling or maybe psychological problem..IC is a feeling of inferiority towards other people,always looking at oneself as inferior to others...that's what IC is..

So yes..I often compare myself to others and find myself not as good looking as they are, not as well build like they are, not as smart as they are, not as a leader as they are, not as cool as they are and other things..There are 2 effects of having IC, one is good and one is bad..

First, u will try harder to overcome that feeling by improving yourself and trying the best you can do.. For example, if I feel like I'm not good enough in basketball, I'll train harder than anyone else, coming to practice earlier than anyone else, taking extra time to practice and doing some other stuff that will improve my play..

The other effect of IC is depression.. Some people feel depress when they feel inferior to other people... And we all know that depression can be...well...depressing.. And depression can lead to other bad things like doing something stupid or careless or reckless and ultimately maybe suicide...

So how does IC affected me? I'd say in both ways... I do feel wanting to improve myself and I do feel depress... U know like how in Facebook that people will always update their status bout what's going on in their life? Well, I do read their status' sometimes and I feel like they are having a getter life than me.. Most of them are my friends of course...Some of them have married, some are getting married, some have had an engagement, some have a job and a pay, some are doing something nice for themselves, some are going to places that I can only dare to dream, some have just bought new things, some receive a surprise presents, some are having a fun time with their love one and other things... It makes me things what am I here for? Just sitting around all day doing nothing waiting for something that might come or might not come? That's pretty lame and pathetic for a 22 year old guy with good health and complete body parts and a well mind... I can't even have a temporary job during the holiday..That sucks...like really sucks...

So u see, r maybe u can't see...but whatever.. I don't expect anybody to understand me... Coz I'm just useless sorry excuse for a human being who has nothing to do except eat, sleep and poop..Better be a cat..at least if I'm a cat I can be cute and adorable even though I just eat and poop and play and sleep all day...*sigh*