Kei Seichi's Blog

Its 1.57am and i'm updating my blog!giler gak la, xpernah aku buat..tp da nak wat camne..da terasa nak update blog..xkesah pon xde orang bace..haha
Once a loner, always a loner..Aku pernah hidup sorang2 dulu, and i can do it again..I don't need anybody in my life, coz i've always make em sad and disappointed..so what's the point?I'm fine by myself..
Surrounded by such friends sometimes makes me feels lucky to have them, but sometimes makes me wanna o back being the lone wolf i am..i don't belong in any pack...
today, a good friend of mine say that she hates me and it struck me in the heart..well, i know she's sad and if she wanted somebody to blame and to hate, i'd be willing to be that person..as long as she's happy..
yeah, i'm just a punching bag and i don't mind..i'm used to..
then there's this other person...
i like her and she's my best friend..and she consider me as her best friend to..but i can't shake this feeling that i like her more than that..sometime i wonder why did i can shake my feelings with my past crushes but not her?She friendzoned me and i'm beginning to accept it..but still can't shake this feeling..probably need some time i guess...
Then there's another person..she said she likes me and even love me, but i don't know if i can respond to her feelings..i don't wanna hurt her..we're so far apart and i'm scared of a long distance relationship..i don't know if i'll be loyal or if she'll be loyal..if i'm the one whose not loyal, i would break her heart and that's the last thing i wanna do..i don't know what i should do..
life is complicated as it can be right now..with other problems..*sigh*


My existence is of no importance to the world..wish i'd just disappear and nobody would miss me..

Manusia ni macam-macam jenis ade la...yang baik n yang xbaik..
Yang annoying sangat2 pon ade..menyampah giler wey..takyah la tunjukkan sangat your immaturity kat public, malu la..
Berlagak macam budak tak matang la wey..menyirap dowh..orang pandang ko macam orang tak betul je..
tetibe menyanyi kat public ramai2, gelak macam orang gile, pastu buat sangat la perangai x matured ko tu macam budak tak cukup umur..rasenye da cukup besar da kot?
tu yang malas nak involve same-same diorang, nanti kalau x involve kate sombong plak..da tu hati aku menyirap menyampah ni ko ade kesah?
lagi satu kes si celaka tu, memang mencabar kesabaran aku la..tahniah la sebab jadi orang pertama yang aku xkan tegur sampai ko mati..
i've done it before and i'll do it again..
mula2 kenal semua baik2..makin lama makin nampak keburukan diri masing2..terpulang pada individu nak terima atau x...and guess u knew what my opinions to u are..well, that is if u read this..
menanti hari2 dimana boleh bernafas dengan lega..insyaAllah lepas hari ni i can focus on what's important..
well, blogging?ikut mood la..ade entry baru ade la...

once again, nak baca, baca
taknak baca xkesa pon

Bukan ade orang baca blog aku pon so sekarang ni ubah cara menulis..more to talking to myself..lalala~
Lame jugak xbukak blog ni rasenye..kehidupan agak tak teratur la semenjak sambung masuk upm ni..kinda hectic..
x pernah rasa sebegini sibuk even masa diploma dulu..kesibukan 1 sem ni tak terbanding dengan masa 3 tahun diploma..sibuk dengan kelas, kolej, nak jaga hati orang, nak spend time dengan kawan2 sampai xde masa untuk diri sendiri...well, mostly sebab nak jage hati orang la sampai hati sendiri xterjaga
banyak benda terjadi and mostly aku simpan sendiri dalam hati aku, tulis kat blog pon bukan ade orang baca..so simpan dalam blog pon macam simpan sendiri je la..
anyway, mungkin akan terus menulis blog kot?entah la..tengok la mood camne..

nak baca, baca
xnak baca xyah